“Been a long time.”
Seems like I’ve said that an awful lot on this blog and I hope/pray that
I’ll not be saying it again for a while.
It would be easy for me to say, “You know, between seminary, commuting
500 miles a week to said seminary, pastoring two churches, and of course, being
a father and husband, I’ve just been way too busy for this.” Which would be very understandable and mostly
true. However, I’ve written so much for
the blog over the past year, so there’s been time enough for it and the
creative juices have certainly been flowing, but wow. I kind of hit a point with so many blogs out
there that I really just questioned the wisdom and even my own personal integrity
of continuing to add my voice to all of the noise out there.
It seems that so many of them, especially the “Christian”
ones, are little more than vanity projects.
Look at me! Believe like me! I’ve discovered a new, hip version of
Christianity! Let me show you why I’m better, smarter, and more loved by God
than you! I read most of it and frankly,
I just sorta, kinda want to bury my head.
There is a pretty large part of me that has grown to despise the
pervasive blog culture, especially of those called “Christian”. Do understand that I am not holding all of
them in such judgment, there are some very good, powerful, and thought
provoking one’s out there. Also
understand, that in saying such things, it’s really my own neurotic way of
throwing myself under the bright light of inspection to determine if I am or am
in the process of becoming that which I despise…the overblown, puffed up, self
righteous, self important Christian blogger.
And you know what? Maybe I am,
although I hold out hope that because I find myself worrying about such things
that it is proof enough to the contrary…kind of like you know you’re not crazy
if you’re actually worried about being crazy because the truly crazy would
never concern themselves with such things.
Or something like that.
The truth of the matter is that I just really don’t
know. I look at some of the stuff I’ve
posted on here and I kind of cringe, while there’s other things on here that I
really like, but for the most part, I didn’t find anything overtly
pretentious. However, I am still in
process of determining not only the validity of this particular blog, but also
that of my reasons for keeping it. So,
it is with these thoughts, these concerns that I will tentatively set out to
keeping the blog at the very least, semi active. If ever I do have reasonable cause to believe
that I’ve crossed the particular line that I so desperately seek to distance
myself from, “The Cantankerous Christian” will be no more.
Finally, much has changed. Seminary really seems to have a tendency to
do that, not to mention pastoring two churches.
Such things really have a way of changing perspectives and priorities,
and I say my experience as both a seminarian has been wholly, or is it holy
(lol), positive. Both have proven to be
blessings beyond anything I could have ever imagined. I feel like there has been a maturing not
only of me as a person and a child of God, but a maturing and deeper maturation
of my theology and faith. I hope to be
able to bring this to The Cantankerous Christian as we attempt to get this
going again.
Oh, and before I go, worry not…I’m still PLENTY
cantankerous. I just like to think it’s better aimed and
more finely tuned. Be on the lookout for
“The Destruction of Christmas”.
Cantankerously Yours,
Corey
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